Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Almost a year later... best get on the ball!

Okay, so not only have I NOT "found myself again", I entered into yet another relationship that took my self esteem even further into the crapper!  I seem to keep attaching myself to men who I need to "fix", who basically do not want to be fixed and would just like to use and abuse me...

So, then I cry when it's over.  I ask God "why me?"  Guess what?  The answer to that question stares me in the face every day and I haven't recognized it until now.  It's simple...  I try to fix others so I don't have to acknowledge the fact that I am broken myself.  Maybe if I work on myself and leave these yahoos (that's what my sis calls them  lol) alone, I'll gain my confidence back.  Then maybe I'll feel good enough to find a man who doesn't need my type of "glue" and who'll be my partner instead of my project.  Maybe...  we'll see.  ON TO YEAR 2....

1 comment:

  1. Yes Pam! Fix yourself 1st & your not alone you have people & friends that want to help you! Nothing would make me feel better about myself than helping you. Believe that there are people out there that care about you & want you to succeed very much! You can do it!

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