YAY, ME! Small victories...

Well, I got out of bed for at least 1/2 the day today.  Even did the dishes and mopped.  Was rewarded by finding my rose bush had bloomed today.  Middle of winter, and my roses are still blooming!  Gotta love that. Only thought about him 2 or 3 times today (ok, plus now makes 4)...  Going to try to just think "I wish you well" whenever he pops into my head and do something to keep me busy so that I don't think anymore.  Still not enough calories today to sustain metabolism and fat burn, but I did make myself eat 2 poached eggs and a glass of Almond milk.  After the game, I'm going to play Wii with my son.  Hoping to burn some calories there.

24-Day Challenge, of sorts....

With Christmas right around the corner, I can't afford to purchase products.  However, I wanted to start the 24-Day Challenge with the others.  So I decided to do a little experiment.  I am taking my 24 days and exercising at least 30 mins every day, eating the Dr. Oz slim down plan, and taking better care of myself.  I will see how much weight I lose that way, compared to the other girls who are using Advocare.  Then, next month, I'll do my real 24-Day Challenge (with products) and gauge the difference in weight loss no products vs. products.  Wish me luck!  Day 1 down and did pretty good....

Almost a year later... best get on the ball!

Okay, so not only have I NOT "found myself again", I entered into yet another relationship that took my self esteem even further into the crapper!  I seem to keep attaching myself to men who I need to "fix", who basically do not want to be fixed and would just like to use and abuse me...

So, then I cry when it's over.  I ask God "why me?"  Guess what?  The answer to that question stares me in the face every day and I haven't recognized it until now.  It's simple...  I try to fix others so I don't have to acknowledge the fact that I am broken myself.  Maybe if I work on myself and leave these yahoos (that's what my sis calls them  lol) alone, I'll gain my confidence back.  Then maybe I'll feel good enough to find a man who doesn't need my type of "glue" and who'll be my partner instead of my project.  Maybe...  we'll see.  ON TO YEAR 2....

A Bit Off Subject: Illegal Immigrants... go home!

Hello!  I know I have been letting you follow my weight loss and self-improvement journey for these past few months but I am talking about a different subject today for school.  My "big idea" is to help America's economy by what I call "Closing the Lid on the Great Melting Pot."  Although it is not politically correct to say so, I believe that all states should adopt the law that Arizona's governor recently enacted and make it a crime to be in the United States without proper documentation (i.e. American citizen, green card, political refugee, or a valid visa such as student visa, work visa, or tourist visa... valid as in NOT EXPIRED).  In my opinion, there are not enough jobs to go around these days.  Therefore, the jobs that are being occupied by illegal immigrants would be freed up and available to legitimate citizens if all illegal immigrants were sent back to their country of origin.  Not only that, but our government can not afford to pay for these peoples' healthcare.  I think that our national debt would decrease substantially if all illegal immigrants were deported.  The problem is, how do we find them all?  I also am of the opinion that the fact that these illegals are working, but not paying taxes is tantamount to stealing for the United States government and every American taxpayer.  I like that this is a blog setting because I get to rant without sounding non-academic!

rough day, food wise...

So I ran my ass off watching 3 kids and packing up my house, but I ate terrible stuff...

breakfast coffee, spark
lunch:  small piece of leftover lasagna
dinner:  salad with 5 pieces of popcorn chicken on top of it...

A 2-fer today...

Today I got a special treat... I saw two hummingbirds at the same time at my feeder and they were chasing each other around the yard.  It was really cool!

Breakfast was scoop of Spark, 2 cups coffee, 1/2 c. oatmeal w/homemade apple puree in it.
Lunch was a piece of watermelon
dinner was a very small piece of lasagna and a salad with balsamic vinegar on it.

Packed up my yard stuff and took it to the new place, so I definitely got my exercise in today and sweated til I could wring my shirt out!

good day today...

Although my ride flaked on me for the gym, AGAIN, I did ride my bike and walk.  For breakfast I had 3 egg whites w/fresh mushroom, onion and red pepper.  no lunch...  and for dinner I had 1 scoop (less than 1/2 c.) egg noodles, 3 oz. chicken breast and 1 cup steamed broccoli.  Lots of water, although less than a gallon throughout the day and 4 glasses of grape Spark.