Year 3... will it be any better??

My weight is down.  I'm a size 7-8 from a 14 just 2 years ago.  That's the good news.  Bad news?  I didn't do it the healthy way so it'll be hard to keep off.  I fell into my old bad habits of quick weight loss. I'm back to walking now and playing outside with the dog, but I'm hoping it's not too little too late.  I do not want to gain the weight back, as I have done for the past 20 years.  But, I should have thought of that before taking the easy way out... again.

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More bad news, my son has been diagnosed with testicular cancer. He had the mass removed, but we
 won't know if it's malignant until after the biopsy.  I'll keep everyone posted.  Pray for the best.

Been awhile between posts...

Haven't posted since June...  another testimonial to how dedicated I've been to "new me".  Summer is over, but we're still able to swim here in Florida so the pool is still getting a lot of use.  Dutchess is happy to have a playmate since I play out in the yard with her now.  I'm trying to find exercise that is fun until I get in the habit of exercising.  I also do the Zumba game on my Wii... what a BLAST that is!!  Need to start lifting a little weights since, as we all know, the more muscles you have, the more fat you burn.  Dutchess did have a sore paw, but that is healed now so we can start going for walks.

On another note, but still along the lines of transformation, I start therapy next week to get rid of the emotional baggage that is weighing me down more than the actual weight is.  Wish me luck!

Here's the newest picture of my Dutchess...

She loves her new squeaky chicken!!

 

 

So, here is the new pool...

... with Hannah and Noah enjoying it!  Also, I've started Nutrition Sciences classes in school.  Should be helpful with the weight loss and with gaining a Nutrition Counseling or Life Coach career.

New Pool Going Up Tomorrow!!!

So, I'm finally getting my new pool tomorrow.  I'm very happy about that.  My pond area is coming along nicely also... 

See?  Isn't it pretty?  I'll post pictures of my pool after it's up tomorrow.  Being very active outside lately.  I also have been walking (today was the third day in a row). 

THEY FIT!!! THEY FIT!!!!

I bought a size 10 pair of shorts because they were too cute to pass up and I figured eventually they'd fit... THEY FIT NOW!!! I must have lost more inches than pounds!  Happy Easter to all!!

I'm feeling good lately.  Going to psych dr. to try and get rid of this anxiety.  She has already told me that I am borderline agoraphobic and if I don't get a handle on it, I will not be able to leave my house, even to get out in my yard amongst my wonderful flower beds and hummingbirds.  Not cool...  I can't have that happen.  Getting out in the dirt and planting to make something look beautiful is a great joy in my life.  I call it "dirt therapy".  I can't lose that.  So, even though it takes a huge toll on me emotionally to get out there to go to the doc, I'm not giving up!  

Pics tomorrow of my new hibiscus.

Must be doing something right....

At today's weigh-in, I was at 150 lbs.  YAY, ME!  I have lost 5 lbs this week alone!  That makes 14 in 3 months.  And my landlord said she hardly recognized me because of the weight loss (I haven't seen her in 3 months).  That was certainly nice to hear. 

Here's the link I promised...

Paul A Webster Memorial 5k Run/walk and One Mile Jay Jaunt (Family Fun Run)

Okay so, I found out that 5k is about 3.1 miles...  Sheesh!  I better start training, huh?  Went and got the Zumba Dance Party 2 for Wii the other day.  Hooking it up and trying it out today.  (It'll probably be a lot more fun OUT of the box, don'tcha think? lol...)  Gotta laugh at myself or life would be a lot tougher than it already is!  Was gonna work on my pond area today and get the soil ready for gardening because we've had really hot weather lately but, wouldn't ya know, it cooled off today.

Anyways, I digress...  About the 5k, I know for sure I can walk @ least a mile and 1/2, possibly even 2.  So, now I just have to work on getting my nerves settled and realize that the world out there is not as scarey as I have myself convinced that it is, and then get to training for the extra 1.1 mile that I'm not sure I'm able to do yet.

'Til tomorrow, have a good one...  (starting food diary on here again tomorrow).

Been awhile... again!

So, I haven't posted in awhile.  Haven't been really taking care of myself either.  But now I will be every day for sure because I made a promise to a very special person who I love with all of my heart, my niece Ericka.  There is a 5k coming up in honor of her cousin, Paul.  I told her that I would get healthy enough and brave enough to walk (not run... come on now, let's don't go overboard on this fat lady!! lol) in it because she promised me that if I would do it, so would she!  Just how far is 5k anyways, does anybody know?  At any rate, it'll be my first ever.  I will post the link to Paul's site as soon as I find it on my facebook wall.  I forgot to copy it before I came over here.  So, tomorrow will be the start of my walking to see how far I can walk without passing out... lol!  Just kidding... my foot will give out before my breath does.  I got a new tattoo and it is still sore.  Til tomorrow then!

YAY, ME! Small victories...

Well, I got out of bed for at least 1/2 the day today.  Even did the dishes and mopped.  Was rewarded by finding my rose bush had bloomed today.  Middle of winter, and my roses are still blooming!  Gotta love that. Only thought about him 2 or 3 times today (ok, plus now makes 4)...  Going to try to just think "I wish you well" whenever he pops into my head and do something to keep me busy so that I don't think anymore.  Still not enough calories today to sustain metabolism and fat burn, but I did make myself eat 2 poached eggs and a glass of Almond milk.  After the game, I'm going to play Wii with my son.  Hoping to burn some calories there.

24-Day Challenge, of sorts....

With Christmas right around the corner, I can't afford to purchase products.  However, I wanted to start the 24-Day Challenge with the others.  So I decided to do a little experiment.  I am taking my 24 days and exercising at least 30 mins every day, eating the Dr. Oz slim down plan, and taking better care of myself.  I will see how much weight I lose that way, compared to the other girls who are using Advocare.  Then, next month, I'll do my real 24-Day Challenge (with products) and gauge the difference in weight loss no products vs. products.  Wish me luck!  Day 1 down and did pretty good....

Almost a year later... best get on the ball!

Okay, so not only have I NOT "found myself again", I entered into yet another relationship that took my self esteem even further into the crapper!  I seem to keep attaching myself to men who I need to "fix", who basically do not want to be fixed and would just like to use and abuse me...

So, then I cry when it's over.  I ask God "why me?"  Guess what?  The answer to that question stares me in the face every day and I haven't recognized it until now.  It's simple...  I try to fix others so I don't have to acknowledge the fact that I am broken myself.  Maybe if I work on myself and leave these yahoos (that's what my sis calls them  lol) alone, I'll gain my confidence back.  Then maybe I'll feel good enough to find a man who doesn't need my type of "glue" and who'll be my partner instead of my project.  Maybe...  we'll see.  ON TO YEAR 2....

A Bit Off Subject: Illegal Immigrants... go home!

Hello!  I know I have been letting you follow my weight loss and self-improvement journey for these past few months but I am talking about a different subject today for school.  My "big idea" is to help America's economy by what I call "Closing the Lid on the Great Melting Pot."  Although it is not politically correct to say so, I believe that all states should adopt the law that Arizona's governor recently enacted and make it a crime to be in the United States without proper documentation (i.e. American citizen, green card, political refugee, or a valid visa such as student visa, work visa, or tourist visa... valid as in NOT EXPIRED).  In my opinion, there are not enough jobs to go around these days.  Therefore, the jobs that are being occupied by illegal immigrants would be freed up and available to legitimate citizens if all illegal immigrants were sent back to their country of origin.  Not only that, but our government can not afford to pay for these peoples' healthcare.  I think that our national debt would decrease substantially if all illegal immigrants were deported.  The problem is, how do we find them all?  I also am of the opinion that the fact that these illegals are working, but not paying taxes is tantamount to stealing for the United States government and every American taxpayer.  I like that this is a blog setting because I get to rant without sounding non-academic!

rough day, food wise...

So I ran my ass off watching 3 kids and packing up my house, but I ate terrible stuff...

breakfast coffee, spark
lunch:  small piece of leftover lasagna
dinner:  salad with 5 pieces of popcorn chicken on top of it...

A 2-fer today...

Today I got a special treat... I saw two hummingbirds at the same time at my feeder and they were chasing each other around the yard.  It was really cool!

Breakfast was scoop of Spark, 2 cups coffee, 1/2 c. oatmeal w/homemade apple puree in it.
Lunch was a piece of watermelon
dinner was a very small piece of lasagna and a salad with balsamic vinegar on it.

Packed up my yard stuff and took it to the new place, so I definitely got my exercise in today and sweated til I could wring my shirt out!

good day today...

Although my ride flaked on me for the gym, AGAIN, I did ride my bike and walk.  For breakfast I had 3 egg whites w/fresh mushroom, onion and red pepper.  no lunch...  and for dinner I had 1 scoop (less than 1/2 c.) egg noodles, 3 oz. chicken breast and 1 cup steamed broccoli.  Lots of water, although less than a gallon throughout the day and 4 glasses of grape Spark.

I absolutely love going to the gym...

I have found that I love to go to the gym and workout.  I love to attend the Zumba classes also.  What I don't like is to exercise at home and, therefore, am not motivated to keep up my workout schedule even though I have tons of fun exercise stuff at home.

Unfortunately, I don't drive and have to rely on other people to get me to the gym...  Those people (of which there are only 2... one of which is also a member at my gym) either have their own lives to deal with or are not motivated into going to the gym as often as I would like to.

Conclusion....  I must try to get my driver's license!!

Day 2: Anytime Fitness...

Day 2: Anytime Fitness...
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Ok, so here we go again... ANOTHER day 1:

Ok, so here we go again... ANOTHER day 1:
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Starting 14-day MNSMax E from Trim line of Advocare:

Sorry, Bec, I'm starting a day early....  I am starting the e-pack supplements of the Trim line of Advocare today. I love the energy it gives me and I have so much housework to do that I am starting it today instead of tomorrow, with the rest of the group...  I only have 3 more days until my trip to Michigan.  I am looking forward to that.  I'll get to see my family for the 1st time in 4 years and, hopefully, will be bringing Billie back down here with me.  Getting my nails done tonight (another reason I'm starting the 14 day today instead of tomorrow... I need the energy to scrub my kitchen and bathroom BEFORE getting my nails done!).  Weight-loss speaking, haven't been doing very good at that, but inches lost (thanks to Catalyst) is still awesome!  Got measured at Curves last week and I had lost another 1/2 off my hips and another 1" off of my waist...  Wishing I could regulate WHERE I want the inches to come off though, because my hips are so much wider than my waist already that I still look very large even with 5" off hips (so far) and 3" off waist (so far)...  Becky, any suggestions??  Been doing Zumba off YouTube, as no transportation to classes.  Also the Supreme 90 day which is SUPER D-DUPER HARD!!!  Started my nutrition planning class, which is very interesting... can't wait to learn more...  Thinking about changing my major to Nutrition Sciences instead of IT.  I think it will come in handy more than the IT.

Real short because I'm tired

Just wanted to let you all know I started the Supreme 90 Day System today.  Workout was Chest & Back... very intense and I loved it!!!  Also, the diet that goes along with it is fabulous!